We're about to send our eldest off to college, and the next one is starting to college search. Soon we'll be "empty nesters". Very soon. And it doesn't upset me. I'm looking forward to it. Truly!
At one time I wasn't sure that I would. I kept looking back on when they were very young and wishing I could have a "do over", that I could go back to when their problems and lives were simpler, and in retrospect, easier. I think my friends and family expected me to be that kind of mom, and try to keep them close, and maybe I did, at least a little bit. Perhaps I feel ok now with the process of them moving on because my kids are looking forward to it, and because there are glimpses of the the future that I have found enjoyable and perhaps exciting. Like today, when I'm home alone for a few hours with just the dog, and there's no tv on, no radio, no one asking for anything from me. I never knew I liked quiet so much, at least on occasion.
I know I will miss them and the chaos too, but I'm ready for this future. I've already started planning care packages to send! I may still be one of the mothers who is crying as they drive away from leaving their child at school, but they'll be happy tears.
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I think that my mother is still working on letting me go and I went off to college in 1986. The thing I didn't know then and I wish I wasn't thinking about now is that I'll be the one having to let go next time and it won't be for a four-year trip that ends in graduation. It will be me waving goodbye to her as she sets off on the final unit of study for all of us.
Or maybe I'm just in too morbid of a mood. Whatever the case, it was nice of you to stop by and comment on one of my old poems. I have newer ones too and they're getting better now.
Best of luck with the blog. I like having mine. I hope you will enjoy yours.
I'm facing the same thing with my mother. Don't have to be in a morbid mood to go there. Part of aging, the way we anticipate losses more.
I will check back on your poetry. I hope to post some of mine. Thanks for stopping by.
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